Afraid to Look - Amanda Stern

“Since I was a child, I've been held captive by this nameless, invisible dread.”

Photo by Jason Falchook

Afraid to Look

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In this hour, stories of nerves, anxiety, fear! And the courage and support that allow us to overcome. A phone call, a taxi ride, and a stranger's generosity of spirit. This episode is hosted by The Moth's Artistic Director, Catherine Burns. The Moth Radio Hour is produced by The Moth and Jay Allison of Atlantic Public Media. 

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Stories in this Episode

Separation Anxiety

by Amanda Stern

Amanda Stern reaches a breaking point with her anxiety.

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I Need You to Know

by Tim Manley

Tim Manley's repressed feelings start to manifest themselves physically. 

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The Baptism

by Anoush Froundjian

Nervous bride-to-be Anoush Froundjian introduces her fiancé to her Armenian traditions. 

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The Best Mother She Ever Had

by Cheryl Murfin

Cheryl Murfin forgets something important in the parking lot of the grocery story. 

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The Tears Between Us

by Devan Sandiford

Devan Sandiford finds the courage to talk to his mother about the family's past.

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Extras From This Episode

Afraid to Look

Amanda Stern

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Amanda Stern at age 25 in her apartment.



Anoush Froundjian

Anoush  Justins Baptism

Anoush Froundjian and her now-husband Justin at his baptism.

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Justin being baptized.

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Anoush and Justin at their wedding.

Cheryl Murfin

Cheryl Murfin With Daughter Madeleine

Cheryl Murfin with her daughter, Madeleine (the baby in the story).

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The  Im Not Sure About You Look My Daughter Gave Me At Birth  Cheryl Murfin Daughter

The "I'm-not-sure-about-you" look Cheryl's daughter gave her at birth.

Devan Sandiford


Devan as a baby (left, in yellow) and his uncle, Ronald Edwards (far right).

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Devan's family. Uncle Ron is in the black shirt and glasses. Devan's mother is in the red dress.

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Uncle Ron in the mid-1980s when he lived with Devan and his family.

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Uncle Ron at Christmas.